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Monday, August 31, 2015

The Vintage Equalizer

“You will never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have”

Who am i? I am a working woman who fiercely loves her husband and her daughter. I am also a pampered sister, a spoilt daughter, and a cherished daughter in law. But weekdays 9 to 5 I am a marketing person working for HT Media Ltd as Senior Manager for PACE, their Newspaper in Education Programme.





I have a long pretty face which is adorned by shot curling hair. Most days you will find my eyes defined by eye liner and mascara. I am not so fussy about clothes but my daily ensemble includes a generous spray of my favorite perfume Lancome’s Miracle. I am 5 feet 3 inches tall and a bit on the healthy side but I feel pretty whenever I get complimented by my husband and my daughter because I know they will never lie to me. I love the way I am and the only thing I want to change about myself is my inability to say ‘NO’ even when my heart screams no. I think I have that old problem where you want to keep everybody happy in your life and then you forgot what made you happy in the first place!

                                        

Spending time with my family, especially dates with my daughter are extremely precious for me. To be honest, managing my family’s expectations and at the same time giving myself some quality time at any given day will make me really happy. I know it will be a miraculous day indeed but nothing wrong with hoping and dreaming I think…
On a serious note, my ultimate dream is to run a dog shelter one day. As kids, both me and my sister would get stray dogs at home, bathe them, feed them, make their beds but as soon as we would leave for school, my mother would let them go as we had a pet dog at home and she was scared that they would get into a fight. So I guess it’s a childhood dream that i have been nurturing for so long. I have been doing whatever little I can do, sometimes feeding them, other times take taking them to the vet for treatment or even handling them over to Friendicoes but I hope that when I retire I can help better by having my own little place for them.

I am from a small and ancient town in Rajasthan – Alwar, famous for the hill-forts and traditional milk cakes. I was a teacher’s pet and I loved being the object of their attention but I was always a shy child. My mother was my best friend during my growing up years. Even though she was a single parent, she worked hard and gave us the best of everything in terms of morals, values, education, food, clothes and pets! There were times when we faced money crunch but she would remain unaffected and sanguine so that it would not stress us out. She did everything in her power and beyond to keep us happy and content all the time.  One day I wish I can be like my mother, strong, patient, responsible, loving and gentle and the best confidante! She continues to motivate me even today.

                              

I came to Delhi in 1999 for my higher studies and since then this city is my home. Delhi has been very very kind to me. It has given me education, work, a loving husband, my beautiful family and some amazing friends. I have an elder sister who is married and stays in Jaipur. I never realized how important she was to me until she got married. Growing up, she was my rock. I still miss her a lot and I wish we were living in the same city. I lost my father two years back. We were never close but I feel like I lost something important after he passed away. There is a bigger void now that he is gone forever. But I have a better understanding and perspective on so many situations and issues now because I have been thinking about the past and connecting the dots. I guess I am a better person now due to the realizations.




                           

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